#1: Reborn

Today, marks the day when i have finally kinda straightened up my mind and wake up to reality. You may wonder what reality it is. It's nothing much more than about "Growing Up and being more responsible for your own Life" mindset. Truth is, everyone's age goes up by 1 every year, and there's always a time when you feel that you should be stepping into the "Adult Me" mindset. Got to start planning for the future, be responsible for every action and consequences, and make sure your Life don't go wasted.

Been down so many times, and has not really gotten back up. It's so much better now though, and even more after I have read his blog. The guy who have claimed a special spot in my heart. The guy none other that Tomohisa-kun.

If I had been down and loss, he would have gotten it so many times and much worse before. If I had dropped a single tear, he may have filled a cup warm with his tears. Okay, I know this sounds abit silly, but I just want to write it down anyways. Haha.

On a side track, my forehead still hurts abit from knocking it into my bedroom wall just now. :/

Read his blogs, once again after stopping for sometime. He's still the guy who have never once failed to make me smile or cry. You can call it a fandom, obsession. Anything. But I feel that he's more of a distant friend, and old friend, a confident, and inspiration. Though I know i have not been writing letters these years. Life hasnt had much good to talk about. That was what i have thought. Being in a place where dire conformity is a must, and one is not to speak what they think, but what others what to hear. It has left me with nothing, but just an empty shell.

He has recently made a difficult decision to leave his group of 8 years - NEWS, to go into full time Solo as an artist. A decision that requires alot of courage. The future is unknown. But no matter what happens, I will still be supporting him, just like how i have been a decade back. Step by step, choice by choice, day by day. Spending time, living Life like that.

As for me, i'm most likely going to stop working as a nurse. This must be shocking for people who knows that I'm going to graduate with a Degree in Nursing. Then again, this choice, though have been made with thorough thoughts, is not too shocking to me. I have already been expecting this day. The work of a nurse is not suitable for me life long physically and mentally. But at least for this short time being a nurse, I have seen and learnt a lot. These experiences cannot be easily gained in places else where not in the healthcare field.

Since bumping and falling all over the previous years, i have grown to learn that Life is definitely not a bed of roses without thorns. Rolling in them promises the feeling of bliss and sweet intoxication, but also along with surest pain. Thorns that pierces though every part of your delicate skin,triggering shots of pain through the nerves. What adrenaline. And that's how you can get hooked to Life. It's like that, i guess. That adrenaline rush. Addictive.

Glad that my university life is a blossom. Made new friends, great friends, outings, hangouts... Inspirations and definitely a catalyst for change in my mindset and perceptions. And change is forever the only constant. I'm so so so glad for school this time round. And last year's school mates were great too! If only i have had more time in university... Well, but im not young anymore. life's got to move on, right? Heard this sentence from some random person: People work hard to move upwards, to improve. No one works to move downwards. Seems like i have been doing the latter :/

Anyways, yes. It's finally time i have decided work hard to move upwards. Towards the adult-ly life path before me.

Besides going to do what i love, i also wanna save up alot. Not only for myself, but in hope that my parents can retire soon and have a great deserving trip to Hong Kong!

Change is definitely not easy. I have yet to really look into in detail what job i am going for, but least to say, im taking one step at a time.

Though sometimes i may not look like it, but still i hope everyone will look after me... And i too, will do my best in Life!